For ME past is Coming in Future

Why I feel like all things in life is repeating in my life, all the major decisions are already taken by me, all the things are already done one time and tried in some or another way, all the book are read by me and know what they say and how they say, all the events I know how it going to happen and importantly how I am going to be in future.

This is not some kind of thinking and processing of thoughts I do really feel that that some how my past is repeating in my future and I don't know that time but when it gone I know I had done the same thing. I don't know may be I am trying to find myself some questions and answers to solve the puzzle of life how I take decision and react in situation. Well if I am feeling that it means I am pretty much good in guessing my next move if just I train myself to predict the output what happen in my decision on a particular situation I can really can move forward with great speed in life. Well I know now and I will try to guess the output not for my decision but I learn if others put them self in  my situation then what happen.

Do It Really Matter

Having all the things for life do it really matter?

Having all good food for life do it really matter?

Having all the way to travel do it really matter?

Having all the latest technology do it really matter?

Having all the pleasure in life do this really matter?

Having all the knowledge in mind do this really matter?

Having people around in life do this really matter?

Having a family and a real friend in life do this really matter?

Or Having dream come true in life do this really matter?

I Done it This Time

"I gone though tough time, I gone though easy time, and when I am going though happy time I don't know when it became past."

I have gone though some many challenges and feeling of fears but I never realize which is what. Today I was on the same spot in past I have fear but never really try to overcome it still I am not trying that and suddenly my heart started racing fast and I am not able to hear anything only my heart beat at that time I remember that I should take deep breath and hold something hard in my hand and I did and when I reach on spot all the fear converted on finding one thing what I should say and suddenly I am focusing in people who is not focusing and laughing but at that time all I can say to relax myself is I can't go back lets we have a good laugh at end and at the end I realize I am the most boring and time consuming person from the list of speaker that given session.
 I tell you one thing from my experience I learn is they never care about you all they care about your words and thoughts, and if those are messed up then you can't feel fear but if these thoughts even a little get interesting then you start feeling some fear and insecure. So go ahead in my life and be as boring as can be to minimize that fear and then work after some time to be as interesting as can.  

 "Fear is just a word and mental picture how we behave but in reality but are much worse."

This is Making of That Life

"Working hard is a part of my daily life."

I am may be tiered mentally and physically but my determination is strong and that determination is telling me I have to do that, I have to work hard and remove all my obstetrical from my present so that I move forward and see a clear picture of future.

"It may be look like I am resting for some time but actually I making my movement from next  move."

For me I have to achieve that life and that life has lots of problem and critical pressure to do things and thinking, so I have to learn all the facts that gives me strength to handle that pressure in future. It may be tough and required lot of challenge but know I can do that, and I am trying not only mentally but physically also, controlling my body and mind how they behave going to give me lot of advantages on future when challenges present to me. I can this far in my life to achieve that goal and when I got clear picture in my mind that I wanted that so how can I say no to that in my life, all I have to do is just go there and take it and all it required is some kind of strength and mastery in life that I am sure I will achieve real soon. I am doing every possible way to make myself in to future me and all I now wanted to know is am I real in future or not?