Have a day of life

I have a day of life,
but why I don't feel it,
Why its empty,
I really need a day from my life,
and a leave from from my life also,
Its tiring  to think about it,
Its tiring to even do some things for it,
and I am tiered to sleep..

A Fear That Growing Inside ME

For me to live a day need a reason, I am not talking about why everybody need a reason to live but few for them has a reason to die today and now. I am going to die soon but someday I will and that time I just think come after I achieve all the things I wanted.

"My life is on other side of road and I can't catch up with it because I am going on opposite direction"

People around me things I am not helping them and I am too arrogant to ask but from my side I am just helping them to set a goal to destroy me, sooner or later they will come after me and make trouble for me and Its troubling me. I know I created them so I have take responsibility from them but I am little scared that I am not going to have real friend in my life.
So know you know why I need a reason to live, because I want to how they doing it. I know if I leave from there life they will forget me some how and only remember in photo they have taken with me in there life.
I have a another reason to live a day because I want to see new sun what it has for me today. for me to achieve some thing required lots of thinking and physical work to achieve that. And I know I am training my body and mind for that, and one day I will become master that day they will see me by not helping them I help them in lots of way.

"Remember me, You are not going to leave me but you are going to forget you one day."

Yours Truly Fear