Reality of Thoughts or A Game of Mind

"Why am I the way I am?"

I am kid with big dream and less energy.
I too scared to world to move forward.
I am just think "I am not ready to do anything".
I am a shy person in lazy body.
Every challenge feels like "I don't care about anything".
Why am I quick to judge me?
I am always be a good person but afraid to help others.
I care about myself why I have to think about others.
I am just want to live some.
Why I keep trying to change me and don't accepting me?
Am I becoming the one person I don't want to be? is it me?
I have to go home because I don't like it here.
Why am I alone with every thing in my hand?
These are stupid question and fact about me.
Why I am not care about my feeling?
Do I am really a human?

Simple and amazing power of thoughts in mind and in reality. Have you notice in above written word that I wanted to ask and mock myself about what I think about myself. All I can go for is this and my mind just stop giving me response for last 3 sentence I have to think sometime and above from there just came in my mind and I written there. Well, it did help me to stop my negative thoughts about me and my situation. And help me to focus on more important point in life why I am here? What I did wrong in past? and I am learning all new things.

"We can achieve anything we if setup our mind but we can do much more better in life, if we learn how to achieve anything"

Unexpected and Expected

"I wanted to be there, I wanted to here but I choose to be somewhere else"

 Life don't tell us when its going to turn, and we are only waiting for that turn. We don't have control how we are landing to our goal, all we have a starting location and reaching location. So life can go from any path sometime we choose, sometime life choose and sometime we just stuck there with no thought and place to go. I am also going to same place, I can't go somewhere and I am just afraid or stuck in my time to move forward. I wanted this and this is happening, my life going though some destination I want to check out before reaching and changing my final destination. Well I may not able to decide but since I don't have choose to move somewhere I think I have to just look for happyness or another path to reach my destination. I am always be afraid of moving forward but I have move because there is not point on thinking hours and then regretting why I don't choose that.

"If its happen one time is just a luck, if happen twice its coincidence and if happen third time then its destination."